Tonight as I looked across at Ryan's plate and looked at what he can eat for dinner now that he is on refeeding I realised that it's hitting me harder then I thought. It's not his fault that he has to eat certain amounts of food and has to do so in front of me - it can't be helped. But it's not as easy as I thought it would be. I really thought it wouldn't affect me at all - but it is! Really really affecting me.
We have now been on this diet (lifestyle change) for 5 months and there are certain foods that I'm craving (chocolate being the biggest thing). I'm finding it very very hard not to give into temptation and just eat some chocolate. HELP! So far I've managed to resist - but any day now and I'm going to give into that temptation - and then I wonder if that's a good thing or a bad thing - If I crave it that badly maybe I should just give into temptation - but then if I did would I want it even more coz I had a taste for it again. Hmmmmm I just don't know - I hope that I can stay strong and not give in - but if I do give in I know that I am only human.
Funny thing I was going through some photos tonight - trying to look for "fat" photos of me and Ryan and trust me there are plenty of them. Tash asked me yesterday to post a before and after of me (even though I'm not quiet finished yet). But I just couldn't stop laughing at the photos - isn't it strange that when you are that size you never realise how big you really are until you loose the weight - I'm amazed at how big I let myself get - I'm soooooo ashamed of myself as I look back at those photos - how could I????
But then I look at myself now and I'm proud of myself (sorry I don't think a lot of myself usually). But what I have achieved is still amazing and it amazes me every day. I really hope that I am strong enough to continue this lifestyle for the rest of my life. That's where I'm asking my family and friends to help as well - if I do put on weight again PLEASE tell me - be honest with me!
Anyways I will try to post some photos of me and Ryan as soon as someone takes some photos of me - I couldn't find any recent photos of myself that would show how much weight I've actually lost. So my mission this week is to take some photos of Ryan and myself. As soon as this mission is accomplished I will post them on this blog.
Well I'm off to watch "The Farmer wants a Wife" - lol yep I actually quiet enjoy that show.
Till next time - bye xx
We have now been on this diet (lifestyle change) for 5 months and there are certain foods that I'm craving (chocolate being the biggest thing). I'm finding it very very hard not to give into temptation and just eat some chocolate. HELP! So far I've managed to resist - but any day now and I'm going to give into that temptation - and then I wonder if that's a good thing or a bad thing - If I crave it that badly maybe I should just give into temptation - but then if I did would I want it even more coz I had a taste for it again. Hmmmmm I just don't know - I hope that I can stay strong and not give in - but if I do give in I know that I am only human.
Funny thing I was going through some photos tonight - trying to look for "fat" photos of me and Ryan and trust me there are plenty of them. Tash asked me yesterday to post a before and after of me (even though I'm not quiet finished yet). But I just couldn't stop laughing at the photos - isn't it strange that when you are that size you never realise how big you really are until you loose the weight - I'm amazed at how big I let myself get - I'm soooooo ashamed of myself as I look back at those photos - how could I????
But then I look at myself now and I'm proud of myself (sorry I don't think a lot of myself usually). But what I have achieved is still amazing and it amazes me every day. I really hope that I am strong enough to continue this lifestyle for the rest of my life. That's where I'm asking my family and friends to help as well - if I do put on weight again PLEASE tell me - be honest with me!
Anyways I will try to post some photos of me and Ryan as soon as someone takes some photos of me - I couldn't find any recent photos of myself that would show how much weight I've actually lost. So my mission this week is to take some photos of Ryan and myself. As soon as this mission is accomplished I will post them on this blog.
Well I'm off to watch "The Farmer wants a Wife" - lol yep I actually quiet enjoy that show.
Till next time - bye xx
4 comments:
Stay strong - I'm sure you can get thru this tough time. I admire you for being able to resist the temptation of chocolate!! You have every reason to be proud. Take care
Stay away from Mon's blog then !lol
Nah you are doing well, I understand the cravings. Is it worth getting your magnesium level checked? sometimes when that is low you can crave chocolate.
My brother is also on this same program as you guys and he has some 'sugar buster' or something tablets. I think they are by blakemores and even Pierra has tried them and swears they work for sweet cravings.
Just focus on how far you've come and how crappy you would feel afterward if you did scoff some chocolate.
You're doing well, even getting me inspired !!
Cheers, Connie
Erica, you've done amazingly well and I'm glad your acknowledging that to yourself! You've done incredibly hard work, work which you can only do all by yourself. No one else can do it for you. Now...chocolate...it's the same as junk food, if you have it your going to feel like crap afterwards. Your going to question yourself...why did I do that?? It's the same as smoking. If someone quits and then has one after a super long time, they say...why did I do that. You will get a chance to have chocolate again...just not now. Later. Later. Don't look at Ryan eat...lol. Maybe sit with your backs to each other. That way you can still talk, you just don't have to look...lol. You'll do it Erica, and you will do yourself mighty proud. As for the photos...you have to take one of yourself in your original clothes and then everyone can see how amazingly well you've done. You know those before and afters that slimming companies do?? I can't wait to see the difference. When this is all said and done, we are going to have a party, aren't we? All us bloggers together. Your cheer squad...he he. Keep it up, you can do it! The last leg of the race. And then it's just maintaining. Sorry this has turned into an epic.
Hey Erica, sure you can be very proud of yourself.
Just think 5 months ago where you were and where you are now.
Why cause you have had no chocolate remember and all that junk food that many of us still like to have along the way especially when we 'are having a bad day'
Be strong, stay strong you cant come this far and blow it now.....
Look forward to seeing some photos.
God bless you Erica and i am sure you are getting heaps of encouragement from Ryan and family and all your 'reading family'
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